My Prayer

God,

I feel completely broken. I have felt these past couple of months that you aren't even listening to me or that you don't even care. It seems like one bad thing after another building on top of each other and I've fallen from you, plagued with fear and doubt that you're even there...that you even exist. I keep asking why would a loving and gracious God allow all this stuff to keep happening? Why can't you just step in and provide a job...provide the finances...care for my health both mental and physical? I've been confused and depressed, I'll admit. But despite all that I feel right now, I seek and ask for your forgiveness on how I've acted during this. I let myself focus too much on these problems and walk away from you. I hide it from everyone else, but I've stopped praying, stopped going to church and not even caring how I lived. And I'm truly sorry for losing focus of you. Is it all still hard? Yes, very much so. Will I probably struggle with this same thing again? Most likely. But I pray, oh God, that you would help me trust in you and help me stand back up. Hold my hand through this because I can't do it anymore. It's too hard and more than I can handle on my own. Forgive me and I pray that I can do better from now on. You know my needs, you love me and I know you have a great plan for me even through all of this. Help me to trust that plan, even though I may not know why...you know so help that to be all that matters to me. I pray that you will provide a great job for me soon that I will love and that can provide for my needs. But until then, allow me to cling to you and your Word that promises that you will NEVER leave me! You always will be here for me and care about my life. I've acted selfishly by responding how I did. And I pray that I learn from this time rather than causing more pain and heartache through negative thinking. I know things will all work out somehow. I'll get a new job, I'll be able to pay off my bills and maybe even someday I'll figure out all these health things. So help me to trust and have great faith in you! Set me back up on my feet again and show me the way you'd have me to go. And may I not stumble or fall...hold my hand through this God. I praise you for the amazing love and care from Chris and for bringing such a strong man of faith into my life. And I praise you that I am your daughter and for your unfailing love. It's so great to know that even though I've walked away from you, you're there with open arms ready to have me back and forgive me. Continue to be my  hope and source of strength. I love you and hand all my struggles over to you.

In Jesus' Name,

Amen

"And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus" Philippians 4:19

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6