Your Heart

I have to say, I feel like a completely different person these past several weeks. So many things have gone on and I really can see a change occurring in my life. A good change...no, an amazing change. I have been quite stubborn and resistant in wanting to allow this change to happen in my life because I did know it would mean giving things up and changing how I live my life. But God broke down my walls of pride and selfishness and revealed Himself to me. I have a song on my iPhone playlist and my shuffle kept coming back to it and I started to realize God may have been doing that to help get my attention and to actually listen to the words...and so I did and it brings tears to my eyes when I hear the song because it really is my new desire and should be everyone's desire in their life. The song is called, "Your Heart" by Chris Tomlin.

It never was about the oil dripping from my head
I never did dream beyond the pastures I could tend
It never was about the praise, not about the street parade
I didn’t really need a crowd when Goliath fell down
I never meant to woo a king with simple shepherd songs
Or hide away inside a cave, safe from danger’s arms
I never meant to wear a crown, or try to bring armies down
It never was about me and who I hoped to be
At the end of the day, I wanna hear people say
My heart looks like Your heart, my heart looks like Your heart
When the world looks at me, let them agree
That my heart looks like Your heart, my heart looks like Your heart
I never thought I would be much more than Jesse’s kin
Who would ever dream a king would come from Bethlehem?
I know that I’ve crashed and burned, lives have been overturned
But You redeem everything, yeah, even me
At the end of the day, I want to hear people say
That my heart looks like Your heart, my heart looks like Your heart
When the world looks at me, I pray all they see
Is my heart looks like Your heart, my heart looks like Your heart
Five little stones, or a royal robe
Shepherd or king doesn’t mean a thing
At the end of the day
At the end of the day, I wanna hear people say
That my heart looks like Your heart, my heart looks like Your heart
Unashamed I will dance, In Your name, lift my hands
‘Til my heart looks like Your heart, my heart looks like Your heart 

I think the chorus of that song is so convicting! How many of us can really say that at the end of the day? But that really should be our goal and desire...that our heart would reflect the heart of Christ. We are commanded in Scripture to live as Christ did. 

"The one who says he abides in Him ought himself to walk in the same manner as He walked."

1 John 2:6

This song has really challenged my heart and mind to strive to live in a manner pleasing to Christ. I want Him to be proud of me when I finally see Him face to face. I don't want Him to be disappointed when He looks at the life I'm living. One of the things I really struggled with, unfortunately, was my purity. I had no regard for what Christ taught us on the subject through Scriptures. I just did what I wanted thinking that it was my life, my body and so why couldn't I do what made me feel good? Wow...even just writing that now makes me shake my head at how selfish that was of me to think that way! My pastor recently preached a sermon on sex and it really blew me away and challenged me. I had no right to be living in such a way. Can I change the mistakes I've made? No. But I can change how I live from here on out and that is what I am striving to do now. I want to make my Heavenly Father proud of me. I want to have His heart. I want others to look at my life and see Christ reflected in me.