Worth It All

It's been a long time since I've posted on here...haha and I feel like I say this every post, but I don't post as often as I'd like to. Things have been a roller coaster for me. I struggled a lot this past summer with different things. Made bad choices. Pushing God further and further away. To boil it down I just wanted to satisfy myself and live for myself. But by His grace, my heart has been changed since then. I do still have to live with those mistakes but now they are becoming pivotal growing points in my life.

However, the biggest thing I'm still needing to work on is trust and patience. The search for a full-time job is still ongoing and becoming more of a necessity than ever before. And then to have a job put out for you and then taken away makes it a lot harder. I am very thankful now that I'm not going to be working for that company but it still was hard to have what I needed and then have it taken right out from under me. I know God has a reason which is what I can rest on...knowing that there's a purpose for everything. He has a purpose and plan for my life. I am still growing and trying to know what that plan is, but it's far greater than any plan I had for myself. So right now I'm just working on being patient for that right job to come along. I know it'll become and then it'll be something that "fits" me much better. I am grateful that Walmart still kept me on as an employee, but still have to trust God and learn patience there because it's still not something I want to be doing.

"And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19

I am working to trust God in the little and big things. He will provide for my life. He's proven that time and time again in the past. Whether it was things I needed and even things I've just wanted. I finally got to a point of totally handing over to Him my desire for a relationship. That was always something I wanted to control, but time and time again it ended badly and got me into trouble. Given me regrets. But I was finally able to hand that over to God a little while back. And He has blessed me in that area, I think, because of that. I feel maybe He was just waiting until I would say, "Here, God, please take control of this. I can't do it." And He brought a really great guy to me who is a really godly and amazing man. It's also given me a chance to talk through my past regrets and problems with someone which gave me the chance to "let go" of those things. 

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart 

and lean not on your own understanding;

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in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight" 

Proverbs 3:5-6

I am an extremely blessed young lady and am still growing, but I think I'm finally seeing things with the right perspective. I need to continue to trust God, handing everything over to Him and not just the things I want to. I need to continue to grow in patience. God takes good care of all His children and everything that God has planned will happen when He knows it's the right time. Finances. The right job. God will take care of it all. I just have to let Him. A favorite quotation I've seen is a simple quote but it holds such impacting and hard truth---"Let go, let God". Believe me, it's not always easy but I'm coming to find it's very worth it all.