You're Losing Me, God

Well I cannot even think of where to start! Things have even crazy lately. I'm officially married now--Mrs. Stephanie Bisaccia ❤️ But things are not how I would like. Or how I planned. I have been married over a month now and yet I have not felt married. I easily get depressed and overwhelmed with things. Why can't we both have better jobs? Why can't we afford our own place? Why do we have to live at his parents where they have no respect for our privacy as newlyweds?! I know I'm venting a bit but I feel it's the only place I can get my feelings out for my own sake. Because I'm sure no one reads this maybe except my husband! But I absolutely hate living there and I don't even know if that's accurately describing how I feel. I couldn't sleep last night because I was so livid with my brother in law. Of everyone, he shows the least respect and care for our privacy! And what can I do about it?....NOTHING!  Because he's a spoiled brat and doesn't get corrected for anything because I think they're too afraid of him....how he will react! Which I swear if I'm ever a parent like that then someone shoot me! But what can I do? What does my opinion matter? I try so hard to stay positive and focused on God and His plan but it's so incredibly hard. It's hard when everything seems to be wrong in my life except my husband who is what's kept me going this long. He's amazing and such a sweet and caring man of God. I couldn't have found a better man if I tried! But honestly, God, you're losing me! My faith slips further and further away by the hour and I hate that but when I see things around me I just have the hardest time seeing your hand at work in my life. But I desperately need You! Please intervene in my life...in our life for that matter. That we may find better jobs. That Chris would get published. That we would get out of that house soon! Please, God! Alls I can do is ask that of You! Help me to trust You! It's hard so I need your help!